O Lord Jesus Christ through the intercession of Your tender Mother. Our Lady of La Leche who bore You close to her heart during those long months before Your birth. I place my baby and myself entirely in Your Hands. Free me. I beseech You from useless and consuming worry. Accept the sacrifice of my aches and pains which I fall in to Your sufferings on the go across. Above all most merciful and loving Jesus protect this child You have given to me from all injure bestowing the health and vigor every baby needs. Implant in my heart and on my lips the words and prayers of Your Mother and exploit our Lovely Lady of La Leche. All this I ask that my child and I may live to praise forever Your Holy Name. Amen.
On the morning of September 30th someone left a mention on a post demanding that I explain how I was using Waldorf in my domiciliate. She questioned my commitment to raising my children as Catholics and she questioned my faith. She also left me a link to a post elsewhere with a very lengthy growing heated discussion. I construe the comment entangle my face grow hot my pulse quicken and my stomach turn. There it was in black and white someone daring to say that I was not a good enough parent that I wasn't giving my children an adequate education in the faith and that I was leading other people away from God. And she was doing it here in my space. That's pretty much as low as it gets in my opinion.
So on the the feast of my favoritesaint. Therese of the Child Jesus between Katie's birthday and Patrick's birthday. I took another hard look at why I was blogging and if blogging was beneficial to my soul or to the life my family. Today I am sharing with you a little of what has been on my heart in the month since that time. God has blessed me withthe ability to write. I think in narrative and I write easily andfairly come up. Because I write easily it is easy for me to share myfamily and my life with you all. Easy but perhaps not appropriate. Because there is another side to me. For better or worse. I ampainfully shy. So while writing is easy dialogueis incredibly difficult.
When I first ventured into the world ofinternet community it was pretty nice to be able to speak inwriting trading ideas and gaining inspiration all the while duckingthe shyness. But those conversations have changed over measure andsomehow so has the expectation of me. This --incessant internet discussion-- is not my medium. It isway way too hard for me. This can't be Christ's charge for me. Thisyoke is neither easy nor light. While I might write come up. I cannot give to populate on the internet the effort that is required of me for dialogue. Inthe past year my life has changed dramatically. I undergo added a baby,launched a child into the world (and lost my best helper) and stoodhere at home while my husband accepted a job which requires tremendousamounts of travel. The toll these things have taken on my family areenormous. The tasks I face at home while I try to educate the children(there are eight in my care every day and a ninth at college who stillneeds me) God has entrusted to me are overwhelming. I cannot do themwell and be available online in the way that has come to be expected. "Ihave enough dialogue here at home; I can't do dialogue online as well." (That's not my line but the author of that line knows how grateful I am to her for both the line and her wise counsel throughout this process.)Iwrote a book. It's a bubbling over of a life I love. I thought that wasGod's call the way He wanted me to use my talent. I did not know thenwhat an enormous strain that book would be on my family. And now. Iblog. I love my blog. I love to share the things we do the thoughts Ithink. But I do not blog because I think I'm teaching or preaching. Iblog because I wonder aloud. Sometimes I wonder at the darkness. Sometimes I wonder at the silliness. Often. I wonder at the joy. That'sall it is: one woman's wondering at a life filled with God's abundance. Sohere I was on the eat of the fear of the little way in the lay of the week during which my family celebrates how much God has blessed us with children. And I could seethat my presence in cyberspace was not little at all. I could also seethat it is not God's will for me to be anything but little. Therese hasbeen so good to me. It is not a coincidence that this was all happening on her feast. Anything I do orwrite online can only come from the bubbling over of a beat life hereat domiciliate; it cannot rob my home. It cannot deplete me the wayconversation invariably does. Because I know that it will leave me with nothing leftof me to give. That's where I was the day I decided to change state the mention box.
was launched on birthday week though we'd really planned to act until later. Katherine worked incredibly long hours to pull together what was formerly only snippets of ideas and stories sitting in a draft folder of a blog that only had a banner and a name. It was our attempt to carry something beautiful out of a week that was dark and ugly on the 'net. To show and not to tell how very much the beauty of our ennoble is at the center of our children's education. Every week we can share our plans and show our work and hopefully in some small way inspire families to enjoy being at home and educating their children. Our children have the opportunity to show their work too something not often possible for children who can't fasten their work on the walls outside a classroom. It's a safe and happy place. It's a joy to write and that's as it should be.
1. Only for today. I will seek to live the livelong day positively without wishing to solve the problems of my life all at once.2. Only for today. I will take the greatest care of my appearance: I ordain dress modestly; I will not raise my voice; I will be courteous in my behavior; I will not comment anyone; I will not claim to improve or to discipline anyone except myself.3. Only for today. I will be happy in the certainty that I was created to be happy not only in the other world but also in this one.4. Only for today. I ordain adapt to circumstances without requiring all circumstances to be adapted to my own wishes.5. Only for today. I ordain devote ten minutes of my time to some good reading remembering that just as food is necessary to the life of the body so good reading is necessary to the life of the soul.6. Only for today. I will do one good deed and not tell anyone about it.7. Only for today. I ordain do at least one thing I do not like doing; and it my feelings are hurt. I will make sure no one notices.8. Only for today. I will make a plan for myself: I may not follow it to the letter but I will make it. And I will be on follow against two evils: hastiness and indecision.9. Only for today. I will firmly believe despite appearances that the good Providence of God cares for me as no one else who exists in this world.10. Only for today. I will undergo no fears. In particular. I will not be afraid to enjoy what is beautiful and to believe in goodness. Indeed for twelve hours I can certainly do what might cause me consternation were I to believe I had to do it all my life. Bl. Pope John XXIII
All written material and original photographs on this site procure © 2007-2008 by the Elizabeth Foss. If you see a good idea here it's the work of the Holy Spirit. All good things are inspired by God. Ultimately the Hat Tip belongs to Him and only to Him. (And if you see a bad idea it's because I wasn't listening closely--please pray for me;-). God wants us to share and to encourage one another so if you see a good idea here please conclude free to pass it along. And if the Holy animate nudges you send your friends our way too. I'd like to meet them! Remember the ideas were shared freely with you; share them freely with others. "Freely you have received freely give." Matthew 10:8
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